Old friends lost

I have a friend that I haven't talked to in years. She used to be a great friend. I was the maid of honor in her wedding...we'd been friends since second grade. I spent many years calling her, leaving voice mails, sending e-mails with very little, if any, response from her. But even after several years of no contact, I am still grieving the loss of this friendship. She's pregnant with her first child and hasn't contact me once directly about it. I'm a little hurt, but mostly just bummed about the loss.

I think it continues to work in the back of my brain because every once in a while I'll have a dream about her. The most recent was a variation on all the rest - somehow I manage to fly out to visit her (she lives across the country) and she completely ignores me. I spend the entire dream following her around, trying to catch up with her (she knows I've come to visit) but she doesn't want to spend any time with me. I'm hurt and frustrated. I always wake up wanting to reach out, to make some kind of contact but I convince myself that I've done all I can. It's over.

Am I foolish for feeling this way? Why does it bother me so much? I'm not lacking for friendships. I feel completely satisfied in that area. Maybe I'm overly sentimental...who knows?!

To my readers: cherish your friends and family - don't forget to reach out.

To my friend (if you ever read this): I miss you.

The World of Blogging...

So...I've decided to enter the blogging world. I've always been slightly opposed to it...until recently. I'm not sure what changed, but now I have a desire to place my mark on the blogging world! I don't really have any goals or groups of people that I'm trying to reach. I guess I thought I might have something to add to the world...if someone happened to find me. I just plan to write on every day things...life, God, health, friends, family...and whatever else strikes my fancy.

I'm not a writer, and I don't ever plan to be. My English may be poor, my spelling may be bad and maybe I'll offend you (unintentionally), so you'll just have to forgive me.

Welcome to my blog...